Sunday, July 25, 2010

maria's in heaven ... and i'm on holidays ...

i didn't even realize how burdened i was for maria ... until she slept away ... it seemed that she was always on my mind - heavy on my heart ... it was a continual praying for her comfort and the Lord's mercy ... then she got to heaven first ... and though there is that earthly grieving - my burden is gone ... i know that all her suffering has ended ... in that regard, my heart doesn't feel the weight anymore ...


and i don't have to think of her as " my poor little maria"  anymore ... for that, i am so thankful ...


this past 3 weeks has been filled with the ordinary things of summer ... walks, swims, visits ... celebrating birthdays ... but i have also wanted to just be cocooned and quiet too ... my emotions are near the surface - but the peace remains ...


hoping you all are having a really blessed and sweet summer experience ...


Here She Comes

I am standing upon the seashore;
a ship at my side spreads
her white sails to the morning breeze
and starts for the ocean.

She is an object of beauty and strength
and I stand and watch her until at length
she hangs like a speck of white cloud
just where the sea and sky come to mingle with each other.

Then someone at my side says, "There! She's gone."

Gone where? Gone from my sight - that is all.
She is just as large in mast and hull and spar
as when she left my side,
and just as able to bear her load of living freight
to the place of destination.
Her diminished size is in me, not in her.

And just at the moment when someone at my side says,
"There! She's gone."
there are other eyes watching her coming
and other voices ready to take up the glad shout,
"Here she comes!"

... and that is dying.

~ anon ~

Saturday, July 10, 2010

thank you ...

thank you so much for praying for our family ...

we have said our formal farewell to maria ...

the memorial service was on friday ... it was a sweet time of remembering and crying and even laughing together ... friends and family ... some came thousands of miles ... others drove for hours to be there ... even leo came along with me, for my support, and to honour maria's memory ...

i felt at peace during the service - the Lord definitely surrounded us with His love and assurance that maria was now pain free and with Him ... we are so thankful ...

Monday, July 05, 2010

Maria ... 1965 - 2010

taken on June 9th ... i had such a good visit with Maria on that day ...

Maria passed away this morning (July 5, 2010) at 11:00 a.m.
she had been transferred to St. Boniface Hospital on friday ... they were going to do more heart surgery (an infection at the source of the last surgery was found late last week) ... but she was too weak to undergo what would have been her 3rd surgery in two weeks ... her body had had enough ...
i got to the hospital at 10:30 a.m. today, not knowing that her earthly life would end in only a few minutes ... they had hurriedly called her husband in and they were worried that he wouldn't arrive in time, but God was merciful and he made it ... we were both there as Maria took her last breath ... it was peaceful ... it was sad ... yet precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints ... she is finally pain free ...

thank you for all your prayer on Maria's behalf ... they meant so much to me and the family ...