Thursday, September 13, 2007

sharing chronic pain moments


we had 2 really lovely days last week ... after the antibiotics were all done ... when leo felt "comfortable" ...

then the fall weather pulled in ... and the last couple of nights have been restless ...

i'll give you a glimpse into our household ... into other households of chronic pain sufferers ...

leo didn't have a fever ... that part was fine, but his fingers were like icicles and he was so nauseous ... i put him to bed and tried to warm his body with mine ... he slept fitfully ... awakening in the middle of the night to chills and "yuckiness" ... i got him pills, liquids, did whatever i could to comfort him ... all the while our newest family member attacked my feet from under the bed or dived at me with claws outstretched as i walked by ... it was a black comedy in the making ...

that was 2 nights ago ... last night i had a better sleep, though i think leo still suffered ... and today? well, he's snoozing in his recliner, with squeaks in a dead sleep on the couch ... and me? well i'm just watching and waiting to see what else develops in this chronic pain walk of ours ...

i know the Lord is ever with me, i just get tired sometimes ...

the prayers of my blog buds is always appreciated ...

10 comments:

Mari said...

I'm so sorry Saija. It has to be hard on you to see him in pain and hard to be deprived of sleep yourself. I often have you and Leo pop into my mind at random times, and I offer up a little prayer. I'll keep praying.

Penless Thoughts said...

My heart goes out to you and your Leo. I cannot imagine living with chronic pain. I don't think anyone can until you are called to do so. I will pray and thanks for sharing......even the pain.
Susan

Mimi said...

Saija,
you know that you are always on my heart and my prayer list...
I feel that Leo will have special rewards for his suffering on earth and you will have special rewards for the caring way you handle the care giving...
You two must be a real witness to the hospital staff on his trips to the hospital... because you have such a loving spirit through the lifetime of suffering

auntibeck said...

Yes, yes. It is indeed a "faith walk."

Nancy said...

oh Saija, I'm so sorry you both suffer different kinds of hurts, & I do think of you often with a prayer in my heart...

Pat said...

Lack of rest is so hard - it magnifies all other ailments. I continue to pray for both of you - for a complete healing and 100% restoration of Leo's health.
Blessings!

Cathy said...

Oh, Dear, I am sorry for those painful nights. I know it is very hard on you both. Thank God for the good days, and we thank Him that He is always with us, and we can call on Him to help us. Our medicines can sometimes have awful side effects too, I believe. You two are in my thoughts and prayers.

I'm sorry you had to deal with the kitty during all that, but the poor little thing just wanted to play, we know.

Corry said...

I am sorry to hear about all this pain and I sympathize. I will remember you both in my prayers.
God bless y'all!

God's Grace.

Saija said...

hey guys ...

thanks for your caring and your prayers ... i don't know what's up with leo at the moment - we have a 3 p.m. appt. with his doctor today - to see if the pneumonia is trying to come back? leo seems really lucid and with it - then he starts to talk jibberish? you know, really out in left field ... then he'll say, "did you fill up the tank" - which i hadn't, and i appreciated the reminder ... so ? one minute he's there, the next he isn't ? he hasn't had these types of spells in a while ... ? scary for me ... scary for him too, tho' he doesn't remember (chronic health humour!) ... again, thanks for praying ... in HIM, saija

Jeanette said...

oh dear, i'm so sorry he's having a rough patch. thankfully, you're there to help him through it. of course, the Lord is there, too.
chronic pain is no fun. :(