this past weekend i was finally able to string together the correct words to find bloggers with Arachnoiditis . . .
i also discovered that i’m still so darn naive about life in general ...
i was expecting to find people who had more answers than we did . . . braver, smarter, more spiritual and definitely way more mature . . . instead, i found young people (late twenties, early thirties) who were shell shocked about this nasty condition, going through surgery to try and alleviate the relentless pain, asking the "why" question . . . it all caused a whole lot of hurt to my heart . . . it brought back memories of a path traveled 20 years ago . . . and the way i see it now, the journey is more difficult with age, then with the vigor of a youthful body fighting pain . . .
now i’m kind of hoping that they don’t find my blog because i don’t want to discourage them . . . chicken, aren’t i?
or . . . could i give them hope? hmmmm
the bad point is . . . all these years post surgery and doctors saying "so sorry, there is nothing we can do" . . . L puts up with it and some days wins, some days doesn’t . . .
the good points ... we know this earthly body will one day be replaced with a NEW body that doesn’t hurt but is glorious in every way ... we have a faith that is still growing, tho’ we do feel like soldiers that have been bloodied and beaten up in battle ... we keep praying that our marriage of 30 years can be a witness, tho’ it may be a witness only in ways we won’t know about until heaven . . .
let’s see where this blog journey will take us . . . L’s pain is entwined with his faith, and both those things are entwined in my life . . . we are both fighting to keep running the race until the Lord calls us home . . . the good news is, we ARE still RUNNING the RACE . . . Lord, keep us faithful until we hit the finish line . . . AMEN . . .