we all want to be unique, special, one of a kind . . . and in God’s eyes, the bible tells us we are . . . but does anyone want to be "too unique"?
let me try to explain my morning thought here . . .
every winter i do searches on the internet for Spinal Arachnoiditis - WITH INTRACTABLE PAIN . . . this is what L has and what we live with . . . he isn’t the only one with this cruel condition, tho’ at times it feels like it . . . so i do searches to see if any new meds have popped up, any new research or new gadgets to help with pain (the TENS has been the best "gadget" we’ve seen in 18 years) . . . any help what-so-ever . . . but with a slow telephone modem (here in the canadian boonies high speed isn’t available yet) it takes awhile to get from site to site . . .
this summer i started doing searches for bloggers who are believers and who are either caregivers or inflicted themselves with chronic pain . . . i’ve yet to find a site like that . . . it was another reason to start my own blog, to see if someone like that would find me . . .
i don’t want anyone else to suffer like L does, or have to watch a loved one deal with problems that don’t have any easy answers to them . . . at the same time the burden would be lighter, if there was someone to share it with . . . paradox . . .
so this morning, tho’ i am happy to be a one of a kind child of God, i don’t want to be too unique . . .