"I will praise the name of God with a song, and will magnify Him with thanksgiving." Psalm 69:30
i went out this afternoon, to take pictures of the crab apple trees that are flowering in our yard ... the plum trees are blossoming too ... the whole yard is filled with delicate budding blooms and the sweet aroma of full blown springtime in Manitoba ... it was lovely and peaceful ...
then i wandered into the backyard, near the water, and almost stepped into 5 pounds of bear poop! no kidding ... it was a good shovel full ... definite contrast to what i had been photographing and enjoying minutes earlier ... i nervously looked around, but of course Mr. Bruin had long gone ... only leaving his calling card behind!
my spiritual life seems to be in the same shape as the yard ... i can see God's handiwork all around me ... i praise Him for the blessings in my life and for the gift of His Son, who i have known as my Lord and Saviour for many years ... yet today i had stress feelings for no reason at all ... everything was absolutely fine within and without - that i could see anyway ... yet i had a shortness of breath and nervousness ... hmmmmm ... i know that living with someone in chronic pain IS stressful, and i am used to it ... so why this anxiety? ... like a bear prowling around when no one is looking ...
i don't know if this is a good feeling or a bad one? ... God does know ... i have prayed about it, and left it with Him ... only little bits of anxious excitement remain ... over what, i don't know!
maybe this post doesn't quite make sense ... i just thought i'd put it down for the record ... and see what comes of it ...
tomorrow i will go out and see if Mr. Bruin was passing by again - tho' i do wish he would leave his calling card somewhere else!
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