Wednesday, December 21, 2005

letting go ...

my adventures in life seem to continue ... with lessons on relinquishing control being at the top of the list!

remember how i don't like rides? well, i took a little spin into the ditch today ... yup ... it happened in our neighbourhood as i was heading out to do some groceries ... yesterday leo warned me about taking that corner too fast ... but i just chalked up his observance to nervousness, since he doesn't go out much ... i thought i was handling the car just fine ... *cough, cough* ...

it was just me, the slippery road and a big snow bank ...

instead of calling leo or the motor league ... i called our neighbours, who arrived in a matter of minutes in their 4x4 ... this sweet father & son team reassured me and had me out of the ditch in no time flat ... they also noticed that my front tires needed some air and fixed that little situation too ... Lord bless them for their kindness!

if i had been driving slower ... and if i would have just let go of the wheel, instead of over-steering ... i would not have gone into that snow bank! in my head i knew that ... but emotionally, i just tried to force that big steel beast to behave ... i held onto the steering wheel tightly, cranking it hard ... of course, i ditched it ...

you know how i am diligently seeking a new house for us to move in - but after i have done all that i can - i need to LET GO and LET GOD ... after all, He is the one who controls everything ... i keep reminding myself to let Him steer!!


have you heard that beautiful Carrie Underwood song "Jesus take the wheel"? if not, i've posted the lyrics - i hope you get to hear her sing it, she does a lovely, inspiring job!

"Jesus Take The Wheel"

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy

with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It's been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Oh, Jesus take the wheel

Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel


Maggie Ann said...

Saija, I'm so glad the Lord kept you safe. I don't drive in the winter at all but there are lots of mishaps on icy roads. Our daughter and grandson fly home this afternoon. We are putting the house back to 'rights' *smile* and getting ready to pack up and drive them to the airport. I'll miss them but I will enjoy getting round the blogs to visit. Blessings to you in everything and hugs!

Saija said...

maggie ann ... from your blog, it looked like you had such a blessed, wonderful time with them ... i am so happy for you! the Lord gave you the best of gifts with their visit!

Peg said...

Oh, you scared me! I love the way you tied that song into your incident - so cool! Why is it so hard to let Jesus always take the wheel? Glad your okay!!!!!!!!

Mrs. Diamond said...

glad you're ok!! thank God for helpful neighbours!

osray said...

The whole thing is beautiful.... but not the part of you getting off the road. We all do that sometimes. When we were kids we did things like that on purpose.

Saija said...

peg ... as i sat in the car, waiting for my 2 knights in shining armour, the song and letting the Lord steer the course of our lives came to me ... i learn by object lessons! well, i TRY to learn from them anyway!

mrsd ... our neighbours have been the best part of our lives here in cottage country ... they are gems!

osray ... i know what you mean about hot dogging it as kids ... i remember the days when there were big storms, leo and i would go out driving in them because it was "fun" ... boy have those days changed!

Elizabeth said...

Wow...scary! So glad the angels were watching over you! And that you have such good neighbors too...hope your next stopping place will also have great neighbors nearby!
Blessings and take care on those roads...have spent my time on longer drive on them!

Saija said...

elizabeth ... i've been wanting to move into town so that i don't have to drive to just go get mail or pick up a few items ... i like driving but not on icy roads! Merry Christmas!

daisymarie said...

What a Christmas gift. I so absolutely needed to read this this morning.

Bless you for sharing it...just bless you!

Saija said...

tina ... all blessings gratefully accepted ... (hugs) to you!