random thoughts on chronic pain and life issues ... with the occasional weather report thrown in!
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
inbetween days ...
i hope you all had a peaceful and joyous christmas ...
every year is different, isn't it? ... our christmas was indeed peaceful, but leo had a flu of some sort - so the quiet was unsettling at times ... he is feeling better - back to the usual chronic stuff, without the extra discomfort - so we are thankful for that!
today was the first day i went for a walk, in over a week! ... it really felt wonderful to get out and chat with the Lord as i made my way down familiar streets ... i think i get a little down when i don't go out!
this was also our first christmas without maria ... it's funny how she was in all our thoughts, but none of us wanted to talk about her alot - not knowing who we would make extra sad ... everyone deals with grief differently ... for me, i miss her - yet i am so gald she is not in pain anymore ... those last weeks were rough on us who watched her great discomfort ... i prefer to think of her being with the Lord and hearing her sweet laugh as she knows true Godly freedom in heaven ...
so now we are in the inbetween days ... last days of 2010 and looking forward to 2011 ... a good time to send out blessings to my blog buds - thank you for being so patient and kind towards me in 2010 ... your encouragement was always so appreciated ...
In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit. ~Albert Schweitzer
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
grace is for everyone ...
leo and i were watching day of discovery this morning ... one of the songs they used was this one:
it just reminded me that Jesus came for everyone ... no one is outside of God's love, or more special than someone else ... we are all sinners ... and can all be saved by grace ... now that is a gift that only the foolish would refuse!
Some Children See Him
by Wihla Hutson & Alfred S. Burt 1951.
Some children see Him lily white,
the baby Jesus born this night.
Some children see Him lily white,
with tresses soft and fair.
Some children see Him bronzed and brown,
The Lord of heav'n to earth come down.
Some children see Him bronzed and brown,
with dark and heavy hair.
Some children see Him almond-eyed,
this Savior whom we kneel beside.
some children see Him almond-eyed,
with skin of yellow hue.
Some children see Him dark as they,
sweet Mary's Son to whom we pray.
Some children see him dark as they,
and, ah! they love Him, too!
The children in each different place
will see the baby Jesus' face
like theirs, but bright with heavenly grace,
and filled with holy light.
O lay aside each earthly thing
and with thy heart as offering,
come worship now the infant King.
'Tis love that's born tonight!
it just reminded me that Jesus came for everyone ... no one is outside of God's love, or more special than someone else ... we are all sinners ... and can all be saved by grace ... now that is a gift that only the foolish would refuse!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
library nativity scene
i walked into our library the other day and look what they had on display ....
isn't it sweet? one of our local seniors made it ... lots of knitting involved, with whimsical looking charactors ... but it gets the message across ... dont'cha love small towns ... *smile*
isn't it sweet? one of our local seniors made it ... lots of knitting involved, with whimsical looking charactors ... but it gets the message across ... dont'cha love small towns ... *smile*
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Good news from heaven the angels bring
Glad tidings to the earth they sing:
To us this day a child is given,
To crown us with the joy of heaven.
~ Martin Luther
Sunday, December 12, 2010
my aunt was baking ... so she gave me some cookies ... i can't believe she still makes all those cookies at the age of 82 ... and as each year passes, those cookies become more and more special ...
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Our hearts grow tender
with childhood memories
and love of family,
and we are better throughout
the year for having, in spirit,
become a child again at Christmastime.
~ Laura Ingalls Wilder
Monday, December 06, 2010
tis the season ...
tis the season for hurrying ... for fretting ... for being tired and cranky ... ?
no no no ... !
tis the season for magnifying and thanking Jesus ... i always have to make a conscious attitude adjustment around the early stages of Christmastime ... to remind myself that i am not super woman ... that it's not a competition between who has the nicest decorations or who gives the best gifts ... rather, it's a time of thanksgiving to the ONE who gave up everything to live among us - us, who don't deserve the lavish love of a forgiving God ... yet it is His free gift to us through Jesus, the One and Only ...
no no no ... !
tis the season for magnifying and thanking Jesus ... i always have to make a conscious attitude adjustment around the early stages of Christmastime ... to remind myself that i am not super woman ... that it's not a competition between who has the nicest decorations or who gives the best gifts ... rather, it's a time of thanksgiving to the ONE who gave up everything to live among us - us, who don't deserve the lavish love of a forgiving God ... yet it is His free gift to us through Jesus, the One and Only ...
above is a pic of our condo central, taken yesterday ... we do have snow, don't we? ... and again this year - leo and i gave thanx for this condo that God made available to us, 4 years ago ... living in town has been such a huge blessing!! especially during those stormy periods, when the highways have been slippery - i just lace up my boots and walk!!!
well, i walk in town ... but going to the city is another matter ... i was nervous about my first time out on the highways, on wintery roads, last week - thankfully i regained some winter driving confidence - and it went well ... i had to go to the city because of my appointment with the eye specialist ... remember that glaucoma thing i shared about? well, the doc said i don't need lazer surgery - but i may need drops for the rest of my life ... he wants a few more tests done (in march), then we'll see ...
and have i shared that leo will be getting ANOTHER new doctor? i think this will be the 5th new gp for him in 4 years! we hope that this doc is good - and that he decides to make our little town his home ... hope hope hope ...
well, time to unwrap more of this new day that God has given to me ... blessings on all who stop by here!
Thursday, November 25, 2010
thank God there is enough!
as the snow continues to fall in our little corner of the world, i pray that all my american buds have a wonderful and safe thanksgiving day ... blessings on ya!
scene outside my window this morning
"Thank God there is enough.
In God there is enough love to cover every mistake,
enough light to brighten the darkest hour,
enough light to brighten the darkest hour,
enough power to meet every need."
~ anon
~ anon
Monday, November 08, 2010
a good start to the week!
i thought i would share one of my morning devotions with you guys ... it's taken from today's reading in billy graham's "Day by Day" ... short thoughts - filled with big truths! it would make a lovely present for someone ... blessings on ya!
"The Lord thy God in the midst of thee is mighty; He will save, He will rejoice over thee with joy . . . " Zephaniah 3:17
The world's millions could come down to the beach and reach out their hands to be filled with sea water. They could each take as much as they wanted, as much as they needed - and still the ocean would remain unchanged. Its might and power would be the same, the life in its unfathomable depths would continue unaltered, although it had supplied the needs of every single person standing with outstretched hands along its shores. So it is with God. He can be everywhere at once, heeding the prayers of all who call out in the name of Christ; performing the mighty miracles that keep the stars in their places, and the plants busting up through the earth, and the fish swimming in the sea. There is no limit to God. There is no limit to His love. There is no limit to His mercy.
"The Lord thy God in the midst of thee is mighty; He will save, He will rejoice over thee with joy . . . " Zephaniah 3:17
The world's millions could come down to the beach and reach out their hands to be filled with sea water. They could each take as much as they wanted, as much as they needed - and still the ocean would remain unchanged. Its might and power would be the same, the life in its unfathomable depths would continue unaltered, although it had supplied the needs of every single person standing with outstretched hands along its shores. So it is with God. He can be everywhere at once, heeding the prayers of all who call out in the name of Christ; performing the mighty miracles that keep the stars in their places, and the plants busting up through the earth, and the fish swimming in the sea. There is no limit to God. There is no limit to His love. There is no limit to His mercy.
Tuesday, November 02, 2010
... my voice is small on earth - yet heard with love in heaven ...
have you ever had times in your life when it seems that your voice is so small, no one hears it? when you call the maytag repair guy and no one comes ... when your normally speedy internet, just churns and churns, and the provider doesn't care ... when a loved one is in pain, and you can't do anything to help? ...
i have had so many incidents this past while, that it has to be more than coincidence ... it seems i'm under attack ... every day, my "smallness" shouts - "you have no voice ... it doesn't matter, so don't even bother trying!!!" ....
but it does matter - because though i may be small - the God i serve ISN'T ... and it is His battle, not mine ... i just need to keep my eyes on Him who redeemed me ... keep praying and keep reading my bible - which tells me that i was so important to God that He sent His only Son to die for me ...
the maytag guy may not hear me ... but God does! the internet may be slower than molasses on a january morning - but God isn't slow to encourage my heart ...
yup - i need my focus on things that matter ... things that are eternal ... because though my voice is small and muffled on earth - it is heard with love and concern in heaven ...
i have had so many incidents this past while, that it has to be more than coincidence ... it seems i'm under attack ... every day, my "smallness" shouts - "you have no voice ... it doesn't matter, so don't even bother trying!!!" ....
but it does matter - because though i may be small - the God i serve ISN'T ... and it is His battle, not mine ... i just need to keep my eyes on Him who redeemed me ... keep praying and keep reading my bible - which tells me that i was so important to God that He sent His only Son to die for me ...
the maytag guy may not hear me ... but God does! the internet may be slower than molasses on a january morning - but God isn't slow to encourage my heart ...
yup - i need my focus on things that matter ... things that are eternal ... because though my voice is small and muffled on earth - it is heard with love and concern in heaven ...
my morning view
"Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart, and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. ~ Jesus ... (Matthew 11:28-30)
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Operation Christmas Child
it's that time of year again ... time to pack a shoebox for little ones who don't usually get gifts at Christmas ... samaritan's purse (http://www.samaritanspurse.org) has been doing this for years now ... and so have we ... i love packing a box with school supplies, hygiene products, toys, hard candy - knowing it will be opened in some place like haiti - where the need is great ... samaritan's purse also includes the gospel message with each box ...
mid november is the deadline (there abouts) ... i have my boxes almost ready - i just need to add a few more items ...
if you haven't packed a box before - it is a good project to do with family, friends or just ' cause you want to! ...
blessings on ya!
mid november is the deadline (there abouts) ... i have my boxes almost ready - i just need to add a few more items ...
if you haven't packed a box before - it is a good project to do with family, friends or just ' cause you want to! ...
blessings on ya!
Saturday, October 23, 2010
sisterhood of the travelling scarf
i have written a few posts at the scarf sisters blog this week ... mrs. mac had asked me to join last year ... but they were cooking and alas - i don't do much of that anymore ... leo gets nauseous at the smell of cooking (really, it's not just my cooking !!! *smile*) - so i had to decline ... however, this year they are circulating a special bible around to each sister in turn - when it arrives in the mail - that means it's that persons turn to share her life/testimony and verses that have helped along the way ... i got the bible in round two and i've enjoyed writing again ...
so if you want to check the blog - here it is sisterhood of the travelling scarf ...
maybe the spark has been lit again and i will start to write more ... i do like to write, which is why i started blogging 6 years ago (it's my anniversary this week!) ...
blessings on ya!
so if you want to check the blog - here it is sisterhood of the travelling scarf ...
maybe the spark has been lit again and i will start to write more ... i do like to write, which is why i started blogging 6 years ago (it's my anniversary this week!) ...
blessings on ya!
Monday, October 18, 2010
sharing 2 pics ...
my mom was here last week ... it was so nice to see her!!! she stayed at her big sister's place ... they got the loom set up for my aunt, who will enjoy the winter by making rugs! i'm just sorry my mom lives so far away now!!!! but thankful that at 75, she is still healthy enough to make the 8 hour drive down here ... that is a blessing!
mom also visited with maria's husband ... he gave back to mom the ryju rug she had made for maria, when maria was just a little girl ... mom washed the ryju in the river and hung it up to dry ... it waved so happily in the wind ...
mom also visited with maria's husband ... he gave back to mom the ryju rug she had made for maria, when maria was just a little girl ... mom washed the ryju in the river and hung it up to dry ... it waved so happily in the wind ...
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Happy Thanksgiving!
it's our thanksgiving weekend here in Canada ... and what a beauty it has been ... we have been the Canadian hotspot for days now ... last year we must have been the coldest place in Canada (with 10 cm of snow!) and this year it is t-shirt weather ... guess who's not complaining???? *smile* ...
i'm at a loss as to what to share in this post ... it seems that leo and i have turned into this retired couple, whose days are filled with a sweet routine ... i get up first to have my coffee and quiet time ... then when leo is up and about - we have our devotions together ... after that, i go for my walk and leo has his quiet time ... then there are the chores, shopping, visits ... and before i know it - it's evening and time to read the paper, read a book or watch a favourite show or two on tv!!!
i am also still struggling with "a sadness" ... maria's death? leo's continued chronic pain and health decline? i don't know ... just a sadness ... i am riding that tide, talking to my Heavenly Father who knows my heart ... and maybe there can be some sharing of lessons learned - but that would be in the future ... for today - i am just thankful that there is a real place called heaven ... and there, a place is being prepared for me by Jesus - my Saviour ... the sadness i feel today will be left behind ... joy will be the order of everyday ... BUT don't get me wrong, i know God gives us joy in this life too ... and i DO feel His love and joy - even though i am in this other type of season ...
i know - this too shall pass!!!
so on this thanksgiving weekend - i count my many many blessings (blog buds counted!) and share some photo's i took this weekend!
i'm at a loss as to what to share in this post ... it seems that leo and i have turned into this retired couple, whose days are filled with a sweet routine ... i get up first to have my coffee and quiet time ... then when leo is up and about - we have our devotions together ... after that, i go for my walk and leo has his quiet time ... then there are the chores, shopping, visits ... and before i know it - it's evening and time to read the paper, read a book or watch a favourite show or two on tv!!!
i am also still struggling with "a sadness" ... maria's death? leo's continued chronic pain and health decline? i don't know ... just a sadness ... i am riding that tide, talking to my Heavenly Father who knows my heart ... and maybe there can be some sharing of lessons learned - but that would be in the future ... for today - i am just thankful that there is a real place called heaven ... and there, a place is being prepared for me by Jesus - my Saviour ... the sadness i feel today will be left behind ... joy will be the order of everyday ... BUT don't get me wrong, i know God gives us joy in this life too ... and i DO feel His love and joy - even though i am in this other type of season ...
i know - this too shall pass!!!
so on this thanksgiving weekend - i count my many many blessings (blog buds counted!) and share some photo's i took this weekend!
morning view
canada geese practising for their long trip south
out for my walk
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Lift up your eyes ...
i once read that it takes more faith to believe that there is no God ... than to believe that there is One ... God's handiwork, displayed in nature, is just so awesome! it speaks in CAPITOL letters of it's Creator God ... somedays i could weep for all the wonder i see ... just in my own backyard ... only a fool would think that this "just happened by chance" ...
last week, i took a picture at our town beach ... just a teenie little patch of sand, with a very ordinary river lapping at its edges ... yet the everyday beauty of it, was just breathtaking to me ... see if you agree when you look at that pic i've posted below ...
for you who read this post - may our amazing Creator God give you a day full of bounty and joy in all you see and do!
last week, i took a picture at our town beach ... just a teenie little patch of sand, with a very ordinary river lapping at its edges ... yet the everyday beauty of it, was just breathtaking to me ... see if you agree when you look at that pic i've posted below ...
for you who read this post - may our amazing Creator God give you a day full of bounty and joy in all you see and do!
Thursday, September 02, 2010
expectantly waiting ...
our little beach was so busy this year ... always full of young families ... but this week it has gotten much quieter ... the weather has cooled and school starts next week ... folks are busy ...
which made me think of my life ... i hope i never get so caught up in the everyday, that i forget Jesus promise to return ... one day ... at a time when we least expect ... and the time i least expect is the one i am taking this breath in ... so it could be before i press the publish post button ... ! we don't know ... but we are told to watch for it ... and to be ready ...
even so Lord Jesus ... come ...
which made me think of my life ... i hope i never get so caught up in the everyday, that i forget Jesus promise to return ... one day ... at a time when we least expect ... and the time i least expect is the one i am taking this breath in ... so it could be before i press the publish post button ... ! we don't know ... but we are told to watch for it ... and to be ready ...
even so Lord Jesus ... come ...
Sunday, August 29, 2010
the scarf sisters ...
mrs. mac has invited me to join the scarf sisters (http://travelingscarf.blogspot.com/) ... i know that i have been quiet on the blogging front lately, but ? i wrote my intro post on that blog today (if you want to check it out) ... maybe my blogging routine needs to have a little shake up!
this week has had some more summertime R&R moments ... which to me means sauna & swimming & visiting ...
i did get some bad news last week ... i have glacoma starting up in my right eye ... the doc seems to think that a little lazer surgery will help that situation ... so being canadian - i will wait for a few months before i get in for that (since the doctor didn't seem to think it was an urgent case) ... i am glad she spotted the narrowing of the particular area that creates glacoma ...
this pic was taken in april ... during one of her hospital stays ... see her smile - she was always smiling ... her joy despite circumstances - was something everyone who knew her talked about ...
just a little chitchat ... blessings on your new week ...
this week has had some more summertime R&R moments ... which to me means sauna & swimming & visiting ...
i did get some bad news last week ... i have glacoma starting up in my right eye ... the doc seems to think that a little lazer surgery will help that situation ... so being canadian - i will wait for a few months before i get in for that (since the doctor didn't seem to think it was an urgent case) ... i am glad she spotted the narrowing of the particular area that creates glacoma ...
i have been missing maria lately ... i think that is the way grieving goes ... you miss your loved one more as the weeks go on - until you get used to the fact that they aren't here anymore ...
this pic was taken in april ... during one of her hospital stays ... see her smile - she was always smiling ... her joy despite circumstances - was something everyone who knew her talked about ...
just a little chitchat ... blessings on your new week ...
Sunday, August 22, 2010
chitchat ....
it is a quiet sunday morning, here in our town ... and also, here at condo central! it seems that i don't get an opportunity to concentrate on posts these days, partly because this open living concept takes away from my solitude and time for writing ... but this morning - my sweetie is still snoozing - so i'm a tap tapping away! *smile*
what a warm summer it has been! i am thankful for the swims i've had ... above is the proof - my wet footprints on the dock ... i don't like to swim alone, and all my swim buds have been growing up! they don't have time to have a sauna and swim in the summer ... sometimes i feel like the only "kid" left!!! then someone will surprise me with a phone call, saying "we're out here, come over and swim with us!" ... that makes my day ... *smile*
we celebrated our 36th wedding anniversary last week ... i picked up some chinese food for us and we enjoyed a quiet time at home ... leo wasn't feeling that great (because the humidity was high) but he didn't complain and we thanked the Lord for our many many blessings! ... would you believe that the balloon in the picture was an anniversary gift from maria - some 19 years ago!!!! it has kept it's shape and we take it out on our anniversary every year ... this year we just thought of her - enjoying heaven's sweetness and waiting for the rest of us to get there too!
a milestone - my sweet mom has just turned 75!!!! this pic was taken at the end of June ... doesn't she look great for that age??? or any age ... *smile* ... she lives up north now ... about an 8 hour drive from our place ... i know our visits will be few and far between - but i am glad we are able to chat daily through e-mail or on the phone ... makes the distance seem shorter ...
just some moments from my life this past while ... i think all of the family have been dealing with maria's death in different ways ... i've just been quieter - reflecting on life and my own mortality ... thankful that Jesus is my Saviour and Lord ... that He gives me that assurance of a home in heaven ... and with the apostle paul i can say "O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory? The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law. ... But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ." (1 Cor. 15: 55,57) ... YAY for a risen Lord - one day, we too will rise with Him!
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
the little red car ...
guess who pulled up into our driveway today? terry (Canadian Blogger) and her hubby bernie, in their little red car!!!! she said that they would stop in for coffee this year ... and yes indeedy - they did!
it was wonderful to meet them in person ... terry is as sweet in real life as she appears to be in her blog ... and bernie was her perfect partner - they completed each others sentences ...
terry is also the first blog bud that i meet - face to face ... and it was like we had known each other for years ... and i guess we sort of have - we've been reading each others blogs for 5 years now ...
it was great to chitchat and just share stories about people who we know in blogland ... really a very positive experience ... *smile*
they are on their way home now - terry took lots of pics, so it will be fun to see the visit through her eyes ...
blessings on your week!
it was wonderful to meet them in person ... terry is as sweet in real life as she appears to be in her blog ... and bernie was her perfect partner - they completed each others sentences ...
terry is also the first blog bud that i meet - face to face ... and it was like we had known each other for years ... and i guess we sort of have - we've been reading each others blogs for 5 years now ...
it was great to chitchat and just share stories about people who we know in blogland ... really a very positive experience ... *smile*
they are on their way home now - terry took lots of pics, so it will be fun to see the visit through her eyes ...
blessings on your week!
Monday, August 02, 2010
a month today
it is a month today since Maria left this world - and opened her eyes and saw her new eternal home ... it seems like so much longer ... yet - like only yesterday ...
thought i would share a very uplifting e-mail that i received from dayspring this morning - it blessed my heart - hope it blesses yours too!
Blessed be the Lord, who daily loadeth us with benefits, even the God of our salvation. Psalm 68:19 KJV
Today is your best day because you can grow a little more in your faith, a little more in your maturity, and a little more in your intimacy with Jesus. Today you can take another step higher as He takes you from glory to glory.
Corrie Ten Boom once said, "God doesn't have problems; He only has plans." God doesn't make bad days for you and good days for you. God makes each day fit perfectly into His plans for you.
There are two ways that we can walk through a day. One is to walk by sight, and the other it walk by faith. To walk by faith means to walk in the truth of God's word and the presence of the Holy Spirit who lives in you.
Excerpt from Today is Your Best Day by Roy Lessin, DaySpring co-founder and writer.
thought i would share a very uplifting e-mail that i received from dayspring this morning - it blessed my heart - hope it blesses yours too!
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Today is your best day because you can grow a little more in your faith, a little more in your maturity, and a little more in your intimacy with Jesus. Today you can take another step higher as He takes you from glory to glory.
Corrie Ten Boom once said, "God doesn't have problems; He only has plans." God doesn't make bad days for you and good days for you. God makes each day fit perfectly into His plans for you.
There are two ways that we can walk through a day. One is to walk by sight, and the other it walk by faith. To walk by faith means to walk in the truth of God's word and the presence of the Holy Spirit who lives in you.
Excerpt from Today is Your Best Day by Roy Lessin, DaySpring co-founder and writer.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
maria's in heaven ... and i'm on holidays ...
i didn't even realize how burdened i was for maria ... until she slept away ... it seemed that she was always on my mind - heavy on my heart ... it was a continual praying for her comfort and the Lord's mercy ... then she got to heaven first ... and though there is that earthly grieving - my burden is gone ... i know that all her suffering has ended ... in that regard, my heart doesn't feel the weight anymore ...
and i don't have to think of her as " my poor little maria" anymore ... for that, i am so thankful ...
this past 3 weeks has been filled with the ordinary things of summer ... walks, swims, visits ... celebrating birthdays ... but i have also wanted to just be cocooned and quiet too ... my emotions are near the surface - but the peace remains ...
hoping you all are having a really blessed and sweet summer experience ...
and i don't have to think of her as " my poor little maria" anymore ... for that, i am so thankful ...
this past 3 weeks has been filled with the ordinary things of summer ... walks, swims, visits ... celebrating birthdays ... but i have also wanted to just be cocooned and quiet too ... my emotions are near the surface - but the peace remains ...
hoping you all are having a really blessed and sweet summer experience ...
Here She Comes
I am standing upon the seashore;
a ship at my side spreads
her white sails to the morning breeze
and starts for the ocean.
She is an object of beauty and strength
and I stand and watch her until at length
she hangs like a speck of white cloud
just where the sea and sky come to mingle with each other.
Then someone at my side says, "There! She's gone."
Gone where? Gone from my sight - that is all.
She is just as large in mast and hull and spar
as when she left my side,
and just as able to bear her load of living freight
to the place of destination.
Her diminished size is in me, not in her.
And just at the moment when someone at my side says,
"There! She's gone."
there are other eyes watching her coming
and other voices ready to take up the glad shout,
"Here she comes!"
... and that is dying.
~ anon ~
Saturday, July 10, 2010
thank you ...
thank you so much for praying for our family ...
we have said our formal farewell to maria ...
the memorial service was on friday ... it was a sweet time of remembering and crying and even laughing together ... friends and family ... some came thousands of miles ... others drove for hours to be there ... even leo came along with me, for my support, and to honour maria's memory ...
i felt at peace during the service - the Lord definitely surrounded us with His love and assurance that maria was now pain free and with Him ... we are so thankful ...
we have said our formal farewell to maria ...
the memorial service was on friday ... it was a sweet time of remembering and crying and even laughing together ... friends and family ... some came thousands of miles ... others drove for hours to be there ... even leo came along with me, for my support, and to honour maria's memory ...
i felt at peace during the service - the Lord definitely surrounded us with His love and assurance that maria was now pain free and with Him ... we are so thankful ...
Monday, July 05, 2010
Maria ... 1965 - 2010
taken on June 9th ... i had such a good visit with Maria on that day ...
Maria passed away this morning (July 5, 2010) at 11:00 a.m.
she had been transferred to St. Boniface Hospital on friday ... they were going to do more heart surgery (an infection at the source of the last surgery was found late last week) ... but she was too weak to undergo what would have been her 3rd surgery in two weeks ... her body had had enough ...
i got to the hospital at 10:30 a.m. today, not knowing that her earthly life would end in only a few minutes ... they had hurriedly called her husband in and they were worried that he wouldn't arrive in time, but God was merciful and he made it ... we were both there as Maria took her last breath ... it was peaceful ... it was sad ... yet precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints ... she is finally pain free ...
thank you for all your prayer on Maria's behalf ... they meant so much to me and the family ...
Friday, June 25, 2010
in recovery
maria was always in a hurry to get somewhere ...
we found out today that the surgeon thought maria would not survive the operation ... and if she survived the operation - he did not think she would recover ...
this evening mom and my younger sister were at ICU helping maria eat her supper ... my sister combed maria's hair and they were thankful that AGAIN maria was defying the odds ... when they asked her a question, she was able to answer them ... and she definitely didn't want mom to leave, she wanted her to stay ... i take all those as positive signs ...
i just want to thank you guys for keeping maria in your prayers ... our times are in God's hands ... we all leave this world at some point ... yet - everything in God's time ... and for God's purpose ...
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
update on maria ...
just updating you on maria ... things had been going well ... she was doing "good"... then - her blood pressure started to drop low, for no apparent reason ... and she had a serious fall on sunday, causing a spiral fracture of her L elbow ... she was rushed to the hospital, where they discovered a major infection in that foot of hers (which they had declared free of infection and healing slowly, just a week ago) ... the end result was amputation of her leg beneath the knee ... that happened yesterday (tuesday) ... the surgery was a success (if one can call losing a limb successful) ... they are keeping her asleep until some time tonight ... maria will need prayer to accept this latest event in her life - she had been so happy with the good news of last week ... after she heals from the amputation, they will still need to put pins in that elbow fracture of hers ...
sad news is never fun to share ... but we KNOW that in ALL things, God is with those who trust in Him - and He comforts His children ... after all, didn't He send His Son, Jesus, so that we could be saved through Him ... i guess we need to view all of this through eternity's eyes - rather than our mortal ones which focus on earthly things ...
trusting in God's grace!
Sunday, June 06, 2010
the goodness of the Lord ...
this morning i was reading Psalm 33 and a notation i had made during one of my previous readings of it, made me smile ... verse 5 says: "He loveth reghteousness and justice; the earth is full of the goodness of the Lord." ... after which i saw my note - "Look for it!" ... most of the time God's goodness is soooo obvious that a blind man can see it ... but sometimes we are focusing within - so we miss all the blessings around ... i'm glad today is one of those days when His goodness is easy to see!! but i STILL always LOOK FOR IT!
Saturday, May 29, 2010
things that endure ... things that don't ...
much happens in the course of a month ... doesn't it?
i just want to share one thing that happened during this past 4 weeks (can i only share one? let's see at the end of this post!!) ...
when leo and i were just 2 starry eyed kids ... we built a house ... we cleared the land, made a road, put in the septic field, dug a well ... then our church family came out for an old-fashionged barn raising - or house raising! it was truly an exciting time in our young lives ... we'd been married for 4 years and leo had been a christian for a year ... we were enjoying our little country church and the warm, loving folks who made us a part of their family ...
and we really loved our chalet type home ... we entertained A LOT in those days ... all kinds of people ... from all walks of life ... we had dedicated our home to the Lord, so it was open to all ... when we sold it - we walked away with tons of good memories ...
this is what our home looked like then ...
and this is what it looks like as of a few weeks ago ...
our old neighbour called to say it had burnt to the ground ... even though we had sold it decades ago ... it still felt sad to have this labour of love gone in such a horrible way ... thankfully no one was at home and no one was hurt!
which made me think of Jesus words: "where your treasure is, there your heart will be also" ... "store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal." ...
the old saying of "here today, gone tomorrow" sure does apply to the material things of this world ... it was a very good time for a heart inventory ... where am i storing my treasures?
i just want to share one thing that happened during this past 4 weeks (can i only share one? let's see at the end of this post!!) ...
when leo and i were just 2 starry eyed kids ... we built a house ... we cleared the land, made a road, put in the septic field, dug a well ... then our church family came out for an old-fashionged barn raising - or house raising! it was truly an exciting time in our young lives ... we'd been married for 4 years and leo had been a christian for a year ... we were enjoying our little country church and the warm, loving folks who made us a part of their family ...
and we really loved our chalet type home ... we entertained A LOT in those days ... all kinds of people ... from all walks of life ... we had dedicated our home to the Lord, so it was open to all ... when we sold it - we walked away with tons of good memories ...
this is what our home looked like then ...
and this is what it looks like as of a few weeks ago ...
our old neighbour called to say it had burnt to the ground ... even though we had sold it decades ago ... it still felt sad to have this labour of love gone in such a horrible way ... thankfully no one was at home and no one was hurt!
which made me think of Jesus words: "where your treasure is, there your heart will be also" ... "store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal." ...
the old saying of "here today, gone tomorrow" sure does apply to the material things of this world ... it was a very good time for a heart inventory ... where am i storing my treasures?
Saturday, May 01, 2010
the flowers appear on the earth ...
"My beloved spake, and said unto me, Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away. For, lo, the winter is past, the rain is over and gone; The flowers appear on the earth; the time of the singing of birds is come, and the voice of the turtle is heard in our land..."
Song of Solomon 2:10-12
i like this verse ... the flowers are indeed appearing in my little flower garden ... i was so anxious to see those green shoots sprouting and tulips blooming ... God's promise of better things to come ...
the verse also speaks of the birds singing ... which makes me think of maria ... her happy little voice as she called me from home after being sprung from the hospital! the 3 hour angioplasty which she endured, opened up 3 blocked arteries and they were successfully fitted with stents... now she has more pep and zip then i've seen in years ... that makes me thankful ...
lately it seems that there are joy stealers in and around me - floating in the very air i breath, wanting to land in my life ... but i will try to read scripture which keeps things in the proper prospective ... amen? amen!
blessings on your sunday!!!!
Song of Solomon 2:10-12
i like this verse ... the flowers are indeed appearing in my little flower garden ... i was so anxious to see those green shoots sprouting and tulips blooming ... God's promise of better things to come ...
the verse also speaks of the birds singing ... which makes me think of maria ... her happy little voice as she called me from home after being sprung from the hospital! the 3 hour angioplasty which she endured, opened up 3 blocked arteries and they were successfully fitted with stents... now she has more pep and zip then i've seen in years ... that makes me thankful ...
lately it seems that there are joy stealers in and around me - floating in the very air i breath, wanting to land in my life ... but i will try to read scripture which keeps things in the proper prospective ... amen? amen!
blessings on your sunday!!!!
Sunday, April 18, 2010
odds and ends
the week has just flown by ... it seems i get up and it's already time to go to bed!!! i've meant to post a few times, but then leo and i get chatting or something else happens that my poor blog gets neglected! though you, my blog friends, are in my thoughts quite often ... i guess cause you are dear to my heart ... *big smile* ...
another dear to my heart person - maria - is in the hospital again ... she had a mild heart attack last tuesday and so they have kept her in for observation and to try and figure out what is causing her woes this time ... i thank you guys for praying for her - as the Lord brings her to your mind ...
on the lighter side of my life ... here are some pics that i took ...
another dear to my heart person - maria - is in the hospital again ... she had a mild heart attack last tuesday and so they have kept her in for observation and to try and figure out what is causing her woes this time ... i thank you guys for praying for her - as the Lord brings her to your mind ...
on the lighter side of my life ... here are some pics that i took ...
can you see the sign of the fish in this one? i thought it was cool ... it was one of the first things i saw one morning ... it made me smile ...
we opened the front door (with the screen door closed to keep indie in!) ... and indie just stretched out, all content to finally have some real warmth hitting him ... he was twirling and purring for quite some time ... he made me smile ...
my mom gave me this little tapestry recently ... it was one of my parents' wedding presents - way back when ... it reminds me of the family unit that once was and simpler times in the finland of my childhood ... i put it up in the hallway the other day and when i see it - it makes me smile ...
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If you smile when no one else is around, you really mean it. ~Andy Rooney
Saturday, April 10, 2010
chitchat saturday ...
it's a quiet saturday evening, here in our little town ... i'm sitting in leo's big recliner, working on the laptop ... it's so nice to look outside and see the free flowing water - rather than a frozen river - and to anticipate new buds appearing on the bushes and trees - soon ... there are some buds sprouting in the flower garden ... i am always happy to see GREEN ... my favourite colour!
leo's doctors appt. went so very well on tuesday ... again, like the others, this doctor was kind and friendly ... he did go one step further than our other doctors - he suggested that maybe leo might like to see a neurosurgeon again ... leo doesn't think it'll help, but is ok with the idea ... we'll see what develops as we continue to trust God in ALL things ... i love the Lord so much ... :o)
it was a busy week ... i took our car in for an annual check up on thursday ... it was a good 50 minute drive from our place (everything is far, 'cause we live in a little town!) ... unfortunately, i came home with a rental ... :o( ... our car needed some repairs that took time ... i was sort of expecting something ... not because the car was acting up, but because we did some extra giving (by faith), and you know that old saying about no good deed going unpunished ... however - our joy of giving wasn't taken away by something unpleasant happening right after, and we even had to smile because the amount of the car repair was exactly the same as the amount that we had given!!! well there was a 42 cent difference - but what are the odds? the timing of it all was suspect! this has happened to us a number of times, in different areas of our life ... ever happen to you too?
last night we had some company ... they came bearing fish!!! pickerel ... yum ... my favourite ... leo used to catch me a fresh panful whenever i wanted it ... those were our "good cottage years" ... then his health began declining - and the fishing became less and less ... so whenever someone thinks to bring me fish - i am so so thankful ...
just thought i'd chitchat a bit ... and also wish you guys a most blessed sunday .... and week to come!!!
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It's spring fever. That is what the name of it is. And when you've got it, you want - oh, you don't quite know what it is you do want, but it just fairly makes your heart ache, you want it so! ~Mark Twain
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