random thoughts on chronic pain and life issues ... with the occasional weather report thrown in!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Monday, February 09, 2009
warmer temps and maria news
UPDATE: maria is back in the hospital ... just a few hours ago ... her blood pressure went really low and the homecare worker couldn't wake her up ... so she was only home overnight ... i don't what they are going to do with her up and down health ... but one thing i can be so glad about - maria does know the ONE who cares for her more than any earthly friend or family - and that is a comfort.
Saturday, February 07, 2009
the light still shines ...
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just wanted to share a maria update ... and a prayer request that she asked me to pass along ...
she is getting dialysis 3 days a week now ... though she still has problems walking on her own ... they might release her next week? but we're hoping that they don't yet ... she still has so many many medical issues to deal with ...
during dialysis, she has been getting really bad panic attacks ... and that is what she has asked for prayer about ... that her dialysis goes smoothly, without those anxious fears that plague her during the procedure ... may she grow in grace ... and blessings on you all for praying for her at this time ...
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
white white white
Sunday, February 01, 2009
This is my doing ... 1 Kings 12:24
Streams in the Desert ... February 1st reading ... may it bless your heart, as it has blessed mine ...
This is my doing (1 Kings 12:24)
The disappointments of life are simply the hidden appointments of love. C.A. Fox
My child, I have a message for you today. Let me whisper it in your ear so any storm clouds that may arise will shine with glory, and the rough places you may have to walk will be made smooth. It is only four words, but let them sink into your inner being, and use them as a pillow to rest your weary head. "This is my doing."
Have you ever realized that whatever concerns you concerns Me too? "For whoever touches you touches the apply of [my] eye" (Zech. 2?8). "You are precious and honored in my sight" (Isa. 43:4). Therefore it is My special delight to teach you.
I want you to learn when temptations attack you, and the enemy comes in "like a pent-up flood" (Isa. 59:19), that "this is my doing" and that your weakness needs My strength, and your safety lies in letting Me fight for you.
Are you in difficult circumstances, surrounded by people who do not understand you, never ask your opinion, and always push you aside? "This is my doing." I am the God of circumstances. You did not come to this place by accident - you are exactly where I meant for you to be.
Have you not asked Me to make you humble? Then see that I have placed you in the perfect school where this lesson is taught. Your circumstances and the people around you are only being used to accomplish My will.
Are you having problems with money, find it it hard to make needs meet? "This is my doing," for I am the One who keeps your finances, and I want you to learn to depend upon Me. My supply is limitless and I "will meet all your needs" (Phil. 4:19). I want you to prove My promises so no one may say, "You did not trust in the Lord your God" (Deut. 1:32).
Are you experiencing a time of sorrow? "This is my doing." I am "a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering" (Isa. 53:3). I have allowed your earthly comforters to fail you, so that by turning to Me you may receive "eternal encouragement and good hope" (2 Thess. 2:16). Have you longed to do some great work for Me but instead have been set aside on a bed of sickness and pain? "This is my doing." You were so busy i could not get your attention, and I wanted to teach you some of My deepest truths. "They also serve who only stand and wait." In fact, some of My greatest workers are those physically unable to serve, but who have learned to wield the powerful weapon of prayer.
Today I place a cup of holy oil in your hands. Use it freely, My child. Anoint with it every new circumstance, every word that hurts you, every interruption that makes you impatient, and every weakness you have. The pain will leave as you learn to see Me in all things.
~Laura A. Barter Snow
Thursday, January 29, 2009
an update on maria ...
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
thinking about eternity ...

i scanned this beautiful picture from the latest Decision magazine ... then this morning i read these verses:
Another reason for right living is this: you know how late it is; time is running out. Wake up, for the coming of the Lord is nearer now than when we first believed. The night is far gone, the day of his return will soon be here. Romans 13:11-13a
it made me think about Noah's day ... when he was building that ark ... his neighbours came to gawk ... to laugh ... and to taunt him about this flood that he was always talking about ... and the crazy boat he was building on dry land ... but he kept on being faithful ... imploring them to think about what he was saying ... to board that boat with him, that boat which would save them, before it was too late ... but they were too busy in their day to day lives ... too busy, except for the moments when they would indulge in some "how dumb is he? how smart are we?" type of talking ...
Jesus said that it would be like the days of Noah ... in those last days before He returned ... life would be going along in a normal way ... people would be concerned about getting ahead in life ... getting married ... socializing ... and not that these things are wrong - they are "normal" ... but they would forget about their spiritual side ... they would laugh at the "religious folks" who thought that Jesus would return again ... "i mean, come on! where was Jesus? it's been a long long time and He hasn't returned yet! such silly folklore ... some people would believe anything ... second coming indeed "...
i believe that Jesus is coming again ... He is my Saviour ... my sweet Lord ... i don't know the hour or day of His return ... but the signs of the end are posted everywhere ... in nature ... in government ... in the persecution of the saints all over the world ... i don't want to ignore that ... and i don't want to deny what i believe ... because if truth be told, i am longing for His return ... this world doesn't hold a candle to it's Creator God ... this world is not all that there is to LIFE ... LIFE is in Jesus ... and one day it will be Eternal - to those that have believed in Him, who trust Him for the forgiveness of their sins ... it will indeed be Heaven ...
this day my heart is thinking about eternal things ... this day my tears are shed in joy because i see that Heavenly City in my mind ... this day i pray - even so, Lord Jesus, Come!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
aroma therapy ...

"But thank God! He has made us his captives and continues to lead us along in Christ’s triumphal procession. Now he uses us to spread the knowledge of Christ everywhere, like a sweet perfume. Our lives are a Christ-like fragrance rising up to God. But this fragrance is perceived differently by those who are being saved and by those who are perishing. To those who are perishing, we are a dreadful smell of death and doom. But to those who are being saved, we are a life-giving perfume." 2 Corinthians 2:14-16 (italics mine)
when you walk into a florist ... you know it's a flower shop by the exquisite fragrance of the many different blends of flowers ... intoxicating ... there is no mistaking where you are ...
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
an update ...
the Lord wants to carry ALL our burdens, doesn't He? i am so thankful for the promises that are mine, in God's word ... it just encourages my heart daily ... and keeps me from fretting ...thank you again for praying for my sister maria ... her health continues to be a matter of much daily prayer ... she had to have emergency dialysis yesterday ... she was so uncomfortable and i think her kidneys were on the verge of totally shutting down ... diabetes is such a mean disease ... i keep praying that she is comfortable ... and during this time, i hope she will experience the nearness of Jesus - who loves her so much ...
Monday, January 19, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
He goes before ...
nothing can touch us - before it goes through God first ...Tuesday, January 13, 2009
watch for that jam ...

and sometimes that jam isn't always easy to fix ...
our cheap walmart shredder had been doing it's job just fine ... until something got into one of those little chambers and just didn't want to come out ... it got a first class jam happening ...
after unplugging (duh! of course you say ... *smile* ) ... i took a knitting needle and tried to clear all the spots ...
the knitting needle was fine for the easy to get pieces, but for one little stubborn chamber it was just too large ...
so next came the straightened out paper clip ...
i went in there from every angle, considered getting a tweezer to pull out the concrete like jam ... but eventually (after forward/reverse ... more poking ... more forward/reverse) ... it gave way!
i couldn't believe how just one itty bitty chamber could cause the rest of the chambers to fail ... you'd think that the majority, would release the gunk in that lone minority ...
it got me thinking about the so called itty bitty sins in my life ... how something that i think is "nothing much" ... or "just human"... can still make the rest of my spiritual life stall and sputter and jam up ...
there is no such thing as a small sin ... sin is sin ... and we need to confess it ... and walk away from it ... to clean out the hidden crevices, so that our hearts and minds filter everything that comes through correctly ...
yup, a little inner paper jam - can create havoc ... until we clear it out with the paperclip of confession ...
1 John 1:8-10 the Message
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
open paths ...
here is a portion of yesterdays devotional:
When you pass through the waters . . . they will not sweep over you.
(Isaiah 43:2)
God does not open paths for us before we come to them, or provide help before help is needed. He does not remove obstacles out of our way before we reach them. Yet when we are at our point of need, God's hand is outstretched.
Many people forget this truth and continually worry about difficulties they envision in the future. They expect God to open and clear many miles of road before them, but He promises to do it step by step, only as their need arises. J.R.M.
leo had an appointment today ... with a new doctor ... we had believed and prayed that it would be all right ... yet beforehand, there were still those bits of apprehension ... "Lord, not again! this is stressful!" ...
but it went well ... he was compassionate ... open and friendly ... and willing to take leo on as a patient ...
God prepared the way ... and we are ever so grateful!
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
and even better news ...
they had taken maria's breathing tube out ... she is once again breathing on her own! and she was was ABLE to STAND ...
unbelievable good news ...
she is still a sick girl - but so far - it is amazingly great news! :o)
we call her our energizer bunny!
thank you , SO MUCH, for praying! i am ashamed to admit that i didn't want to bother you all - but it seems i should have done this last week already ... shame on me ... and blessings on you!
Sunday, January 04, 2009
maria update
maria had a good day today ...she still has the breathing tube in, but they are giving her some meds that they hope will make the lungs function better ... even tho' maria couldn't talk, she wrote little notes to her husband ...
that was all good news ... :o)
it sounds like she's not in distress ... she even had the restraints on her hands removed - but when she got tired and was ready for a snooze, she had motioned for the nurse to put them back on (she tends to pick on the tubes/iv's/etc. in her sleep) ...
thank you so much for praying ... maria still has many hurdles to overcome ... but this has been the best day since she went in ... and for that we are thankful!
Saturday, January 03, 2009
a concern
she is still so young ... 11 years my junior ... the first child from my mother's second marriage ... i was the "little mother" to her during those early years ...
if you want to read more about maria: click here
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
just a thought for the new year ...
Whatever the need, whatever the situation, "he giveth more grace"
(James 4:6). ..."
taken from Legacy of a Pack Rat by Ruth Bell Graham ...
to you my dear blog buds ... i wish a new year that is so full of God's grace - for every and all situations - that your cup will continually run over ... so you may glorify HIM, who redeemed us ... that the world will know we are different and children of the Most High ...





